I realized recently that there are very few people in my life that I am not jealous of for one reason or another.
It’s an ugly trait, jealousy…not something that’s easy to admit to. There are so many aspects to why it is just wrong to succumb to jealousy…so much fodder for future therapy sessions.
I think the hardest thing about it, though-more than the guilt I feel at the way jealousy contaminates the happiness I should feel for people I love, more than the aching realization that so many of the things I am jealous about are forever out of my reach-is the fact that,
try as I might,
I cannot come up with a single thing that I can claim that would ever make someone else jealous of me.
***my bad…a friend pointed out to me that, by its strictest definition, what I am really talking about envy, not jealousy…. but you get the idea.
The main difference between envy and jealousy is that envy is an emotion related to coveting what someone else has, while jealousy is the emotion related to fear that something you have will be taken away by someone else.